My sister has suffered for eight years with debilitating migraines.
I remember when they just started to get bad and consistent -- each day there would
be an update on how she was doing. I thought for a long time why not report on
a weekly basis how things are going instead of daily. I didn’t realize she really could only
live day to day -- and each was different -- there was no way to combine them. Now I know.
Both of us were
planners. We thrived on organization and schedules and busyness. You needed
something done, not a problem. Not enough hours in the day – well, you hadn’t
seen what we could do. We easily tackled life and did not let it tackle us. But
then, one day happened – a debilitating migraine that would not subside, a
child who would not be coming home. No, not the same, but each life altering
nonetheless. We understood each other anew. Her physical pain and my emotional
pain paved a new way to bond.
So, in one day we learned that tomorrow is too hard.
Tomorrow I will still wake up with part of me missing. Tomorrow I will still go
through my day wondering if this is all a bad dream, a nightmare that I can
escape from if only I would wake up. Tomorrow my child will still not be here
to hold, to hug, to kiss, to talk with. How do you face tomorrow when today is
almost more than you can handle already?
You don’t.
You face what is right in front of you and you pray that you
can manage whatever that is.
Matthew 6:34
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Philippians 4:6
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
